J.A.M.

I find myself just watching you grow so fast. I envy you. You have no idea the battle that your mommy is going thru yet you smile and tell me you love me every day. You like to hug me and hold me and play with me and talk to me and when you aren't with me you tell me you missed me. The unconditional love that I yearn for in a partner I have with my child. I stare at you never wanting you to go thru what I've gone thru in my life and trying to figure out how to change my life so that you won't have to endure the shyt I've had to. I love you for being my lil mini me, when i look at you I see me and know that your childhood is totally different from mine, but I've turned you into a couch potato. I've given you a love for the movies which you only want to share with me, you were mad when your dad made you go with your sister. I was shocked but I appreciate that. I love us just sitting together and watching a show up under one another those are the times I will always remember I hope those never go away.

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