Growth Phase 2

Loving to eat and eating is killing me. I was told to lose weight back in 2001 or I could go blind. I've gained. I went from a size 18 to a 24 in 9 years. I never want to be skinny I love my curves and my thickness as do the men of my life...LLS! But I want to be healthy. I want to find a medium where I can still eat but not so much. My problem is portion control and also not eating right. I rarely eat fruit or veggies but I'll tear chicken up on a daily. Once I can fight this demon I'll be okay and get up off my azz and at least walk more.

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