too fast

if you've read any of what i've written, it's straight off the dome, it's not edited or written to be pc or grammatically correct. i'm speaking my mind and leaving it to fester. i realize that i'm still not over you, for whatever reason, you've been placed in my heart something serious. i mean it hasn't even been 3-6 months and you've moved on past me like i was a second thought, while i'm still here, trying to move on but holding onto some love that has passed. I want to meet someone i want to be with someone, i want to share with someone. i don't like being alone, i don't mind it, but i'd rather have someone to share memories with at some point. i'm a relationship kind of girl, i like being in love, i like having someone to take care of. i've met a few people, one i thought i would get along with but she turned out to be a dud, now theres another and i truly like this one, but i've become a bit attached and it ain't been long. thats how i know for a fact that i'm moving faster than i need to. i don't like who i'm becoming trying to get over you. so it's time to take 3 steps back and snap this shyt back into reality. Cause i have to be successful for me and mine, can't let noone get in my way. i have to check these emotions and feelings because they are getting the best of me. i traded in my power for a momentary lapse in judgment. good moment, but bad timing. and i may be jumping the gun with what i'm thinking, this person may be ALL into me and i'm pushing off...idk. but what i do know is that i do want a relationship, it's finding the right person thats the issue. I bowed down and decided to join an online dating service, but these ppl look at your page and say nothing. well WTF?!? i promise i won't bite, i'm a lover not a biter. almost confused at this point of what is exactly happening in my life. trying not to over analyze and just go with the flow, but i can't spend time and energy on someone who ain't meant to be in my life. speak your truth now and move on or at least let me know i'm not doing this crazy shyt solo. if you about games then move along. cause i take every advantage at love. never know who with or when it will strike you. i'm just glad i realized that i'm not into men and really like the company and touch of a woman. i've never been more happier in accepting me, but now i have to slow down and find the right woman to share my life with. marriage?!?! only time will tell.