Loving Her

Seems to be I'm a relationship type girl. Not too often am I not in a relationship of some type. Though it seems that I go from one to the next, there is some space in between I just usually have an option once I leave forreal. To me I've been in relationships most of my life. Since I was 10 there was one constant guy in and out, he died when i was 16. By 16 I had met my daughters father...we got serious by 17 I was with him for 8 years. By 25 I had met the next guy who was on and off...this was 9 years. Now at 34 I have a new one...except it's all the way new. She is the first that I've ever even cared to venture out with. I remember back when she first walked into the office with her lil crochet braids. She was younger than me so I just made a mental note of how cute and smart she was and kept it moving. Like oh she's cute and never thought twice, but then when she came back that next year...I was shocked and happy to see her back. We exchanged numbers, we hung out for lunch a lot more and we finally spoke on our curiosity of same sex and I knew then she had to be mine. I started giving her advice, we talked more...she was away in school but I thought of her often. Time passed, life happens and we only spoke via social media. But things changed again and we had that one lunch before our other amiga left the city. Those sparks started to fly again. This time our conversations didn't stop and at some point became more frequent. I couldn't go a day without her voice, and then it hit me...this girl makes me extremely happy. All the advice i gave was for her to be with me. it wasn't about giving advice to be with another woman and the other women who were treating her wrong were pissing me off. I knew i had to admit my feelings now, i could no longer hide behind what others thought I should do. it all felt right...nothing about us felt wrong and i could no longer deny what made me feel happy. There was some resistance since we were just friends, but once we talked it out, it's been seamless. of course some bumps because this extra emotional girl (me) has issues that she wasn't aware of from a friend stand point. but Instead of running away, she's right here. I find myself falling all the way for her, not "in-love" quite yet, but I'm def falling and I can see she is too. Something like this shouldn't feel this normal, is what we are taught, because we should all like the opposite. I knew that second summer that I wanted this girl for my own and now that I've finally got her...I can't wait to see whats in store for us. I'm so happy these days. Funny thing is I'm not even worried about what my family might say. My mom approves and so does my daughter...thats all that matters. I love me some HER...thats all for now. I'm all blushes! Is it truly possible to love someone this much so fast? Well this is the first time I won't deny myself anything, i'm going full throttle, no doubt, no fears, just going with it. That face, that smile...the joy, the thrills. Wow!