LCD - the Liar the I fell in love with

It has a been a full 8 years since we met and I sometimes still have no idea why I still love you the way I do. After years of lying, I still can't shake myself off you and i'm not sure why. While I can't truly depend on anyone else you've been the only one who's stood by my side and has been there in some of my darkest hours. You have been the friend that I've always wanted and asked for, except you lie about any and everything. I don't trust shyt this man says ever. I've heard so many lies I never know what to trust from you. that is not my fault, those are stories you chose to tell. I allowed my credit to be jeopardize by you by getting you a phone and you chose to talk to another chick and then lied about doing it. I'm not sure why the phuck I'm still here. I obviously enjoy this feeling of not being important, never being enough for anyone. This feeling sucks but it's what is normal to me. I hate it but I seem to fall back into it every time. I went into counseling and started Bible study to strengthen myself enough to get away from bad folks like you, however i'm still stuck on you. Will this be the last straw or will I continue to rely on you since I can't rely on anyone else while I'm down?

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