Shady boots to Positive Outcomes!

As long as I was unhappy complaining you were fine being the one supreme. But now that I've found my happiness and want to do better in my life and have that support that I've always wanted you can't stand to hear my stories. My conversation ain't changed, I talk the same way I've always talked but now the story has changed for good and its too much for you. Lets not forget that when you were in these same shoes I was the one who sat and listened to you. Your eyes lit wide with delight and just pure happiness and I was happy for you. I said nothing or did nothing to have you feel like you just made me feel. Sad thing is I was genuinely happy for you and all that has happened to and for you. Not sure if you keep me around to throw your successes up in my face while I sit on the sideline being pitiful and full of sorrow. What am I on this train ride with you for, because I've brought you along to enjoy this ride with me regardless of the level of success either of us had and I've done that with all my "friends." However you aren't the only one who's thrown shade this way...the one I thought was down for me through it all decided that because I chose to be with someone else that my life was no longer aligned with hers and she's removed herself from me all together. What I did to deserve that I'm not even sure? I allow the wrong people into my life sometimes and will not let anyone else get close to me. I trust no one and I have every reason not to in my eyes. I see others who try to come around and I will not let them get close, I give them just enough rope to hang themselves. So that brings me to this book I'm reading attitude is everything. If I keep speaking these words into my life then I can only expect that negative to happen and embrace it when i see it as an I told you so. 2015...I will not say the cliche new year new me, but what I will say is I will no longer close my eyes to what's being shown right in front of me and I will be more optimistic about my life and all that come along. Do not speak negative words into my life. Think positive except the negative and move on. 35 is looking good so far and I haven't even made it there yet. So POSITIVE THOUGHTS to every aspect of my life and all these goals that I have put off will become ACTIONS and REAL TANGIBLE THINGS. All of those questions I have in my head will become reality. I will find my purpose and I will run my own successful business and no longer work for a corporate machine. I have found my happiness and I will maintain it. I will give my daughter a better opportunity at life. This year is about pushing forward and pass all the negativity and making the remainder of my life successful.